Firstly I wanted to thank you guys for your lovely commenting on my last journal. It really cheered me up! You are awesome!

I have a small announcement to make: I'm accepted at Anti-Models! They're a very big Dutch professional modeling agency and specialized in non-standard models (like me: I don't have the right sizes and my face isn't plain either). So that means that I am going to be asked to do PAID shoots in the future I'm so happy!

*starts to celebrate*

I'm not feeling quite well and need a place to nag, so here's a new journal from me; so you guys kinda know why I haven't been posting lots of artwork lately.

I haven't been painting much in the past few months as you might have noticed. I've been drawing quite alot though (mostly in my sketchbook) but somehow I don't feel the urge anymore to complete them.
Last year was a very traumatic period for me, and now I got a huge inferiority complex that my current boyfriend is trying to get out of me, but he isn't yet succeeding. Because of a new insomnia attack I'm feeling horrible and depressed for a couple of weeks now and I've been ill the past two months as well (first an inflamed jaw, then a huge cold and then the swine flu)

My emotions are (proven) about 4 times as heavy as everyone else's (probably because of my autism); which means that I can be extraordinarily happy one day and down in the deepest pit the next one. That's very irritating for me, expecially when it had got something to do with a guy and lovesickness usually lasts for several months and I can lose myself in it completely even if I know he's been a complete jerk and doesn't deserve my attention.
The only boyfriend I truly loved and actually had a nice time with broke up with me one and a half month ago, without a giving a good reason for it. Nearly a week after that I fell in love with someone whom I met at university and a few days later we were together. It felt kinda strange and I was really confused in the beginning because I felt I was in love with two guys at once. It's kinda eased up now after a month; and I saw my ex for the first time again last Monday and I didn't even cry so that's a good sign, lol.

And then, a few days ago, my cat got lost so I'm completely stressed out now because I live on a quay and I fear that he might have fallen into the water and drowned.
And I haven't really slept the past few weeks because of a new insomnia attack so during the day I'm really tired, can't really concentrate and I'm crying all the time. The cat doesn't really help either.

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Happy birthday to meeee!

I'm 19 now!

Did the examination today for the art academy I wanted to attend, and got rejected. Goodbye, future plans.
I have no idea what to do now. But I'll manage.

Jopie

I changed my official website domain to [link] , I thought it was more easy to remember; and the ftpserver of my new host is waaaay more handy! Did some minor updates, a large one is on its way, but as you might have noticed I've been absent for over a month now because my internet knocked me off. (stupid wireless network <_<

From now on you can contact me under my new email jopie@jopie.net, you can use my old hotmail too, but for business things I'd prefer it if you used the new one.

Thanks!

Jopie